Whatever

Just a quick note this am.

So my last post I was a little strung out I have decided to be less worried about it all. God has been awesome to me and has always had things work out for the better in the end so how ever it goes it l be good.

I also want to tell you all about a cool thought I had the other day during my bath/scripture study. I was reading in the D&C in section 27 and it talked about taking on the armor of God. I heard it before even had several lessons about what all the peices of armor are for, ect. But what really stood out to me this time was what is said right at the start before it gets into the armor peices.
"Lift up your heart and rejoice!!!"
I need joy in my life.
I have been fighting a battle for many years but that doesn't mean that there can't be joy!
I have seen my heart being pulled this way. JOY! For so long it was easy to become discouraged or depressed. Why waste time there? Discouragement is one of Satans greatest tools. I need joy!!! My heart needs a lift.

I am just gonna do it... just gonna be happy.
Life is good. Life is as good as you let it be.

Party then kick some evil butt!

Yahoo!


15 Wherefore, lift up your hearts and rejoice, and gird up your loins, and take upon you my whole armor, that ye may be able to withstand the evil day, having done all, that ye may be able to stand.

16 Stand, therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, having on the breastplate of righteousness, and your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace, which I have sent mine angels to commit unto you;

17 Taking the shield of faith wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked;

18 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of my Spirit, which I will pour out upon you, and my word which I reveal unto you, and be agreed as touching all things whatsoever ye ask of me, and be faithful until I come, and ye shall be caught up, that where I am ye shall be also. Amen.

My head is going to fall off of my body

So suddenly life has become

SUPER ULTRA MEGA STRESSFUL.

But is some strange way it might be blessing (maybe sort of).

So some of you know I am not a very good housekeeper. I just don't do it well. I grew up in a home that was not very organized or well kept and just never got the hang of it. For years I had the excuse of small children keeping me from my clean house goal but now with Abby in all day Kindergarten, I should be super housewife right?!
Well I was not so super-
(I was gonna start next week really I was.)

Well apparently God decided to help me find the motivation to get and
KEEP my house super clean.

Let me explain.

So Tuesday night my Rental Property Manager calls to let me know the owner of this house has decided to Short Sale the house.
AND that realtors will be contacting me to take photos of my home to list it
AND I will need to keep it ready to "show" at all times for an indefinet time period.
AND my reward for making the house look great will be I will probably have to move.

Isn't that fantastic?

There is a chance that a investor will buy the house and will let us keep renting it. And the way the housing market is going who knows how long the house will be on the market. There is a bank owned home two doors down from me that is my exact floor plan that has been on the market for awhile. We will see. So needless to say we are mega kicking ourselves for not minding our credit score better so that we could qualify and buy this house ourselves, but I am pretty sure the banks would laugh at us pretty hard if we tried especially the way the economy is now.

Here is the weird thing though, when I am not freaking out about having to keep the house Ultra clean Always, I feel kind of peaceful about the whole thing. Like it is going to be okay. I have no idea what the plan could possibly be but I feel like it is God's plan and He knows what is good for my family. I imagine that if we do have to move I would want to find another place in Maricopa. I LOVE IT HERE!!! I really love the people here. I feel like I making awesome friends and having so much fun. (I am still sorry Cheryl!) That life is just good. I have entertained the concept that if we did move in town that I could look into finding better schools for my kids. The elementary schools are good here but the Jr High and High school seriously scare me. (and my sweet Hannah is going to Jr High next year!!!) I guess we will cross that bridge when we come to it. So I honestly have no idea how this is all going to go. My property Manager says she gives us about a 90% chance of getting to finish our lease which we have until August.

HOLY COW LIFE IS STRESSFUL!!!!

Whhhaaa! I don't want to leave Maricopa!
I just started to make friends, know the schools and have some fun!!!

It is okay.
It will work out the best.
It will go the way it is suppose to.
Maybe an investor will buy the house. Maybe he will get the house at such a great deal that he won't feel good about charging us so much for rent and will want to lower it!!! And then he will say why don't we put in some lovely wood laminate flooring and of course you can paint the walls that awesome tan color.
Who knows.
Only One.
It will be okay.

Valentines mush

This is for you Karisa!

For all you married people out there! Tag your married friends that you want to know about!

1. When is your "engagement" anniversary: May 1992 It wasn't an offical thing. I was like hey my mom says I spend so much time with you I should just marry you and he was like "Okay" Then he asked me to marry him like 7 times a day for the next 9 months.
2. When is your "marriage" anniversary: Jan 22 1993
3. How long have you known your spouse: 17 years and three months and two weeks!!!
4. How long did you date/court before you were engaged: friends in group dates mostly first then engaged for 9 months = about 1 year 3 months.
5. Where did you meet your spouse for the first time: At a LDS dance at Golfland
6. What is your spouse's full name: Matthew Edward Poland
7. Do you have any children yet: Yes
8. How many:Five
9. Do you have any house pets: don't kids count-- five monkeys.
10. Do you own a house or rent: Rent (ever more!)
11. Do you live in the country or town/city: Maricopa is a weird mix of Dairy farm rural (read stinky!) and Endless housing developments.
12. What is one of your favorite activities together: Swing dance! See movies, Hang out and chat and eat food, day dream of what we are gonna do when we are old and retired.
13. Do you have a favorite vacation spot: We just love to travel anywhere.
14. How many siblings (including in-laws): Me 6 +Matt 5= 11
15. What church do you attend: The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, Matt is Christian non denom/Baptist and currently between chruches.
16. Is this the church you were married in: We were sealed in Mesa Temple.
17. What town is your current address: Maricopa
18. Do you work or stay at home: I am a stay at home Mom. yay!
19. Where did you honeymoon: A little cabin is Strawberry.
20: Leave a piece of marriage advice: Laugh Laugh Laugh + NEVER go to bed angry + go on a date every Friday = bliss.
I tag...
Anyone who reads my blog.

My Graduation

I realize now that is what it felt like. I graduated yesterday, from baby mommy to just mom.

So what did I wind up doing with my first technically *free day*

Wrote a Blog!
Did yoga (even if I just watched most of the moves "for future use")
3 loads of laundry
Loaded the dishwasher
Treated myself to 2 Big Taste Tacos from Taco Bell
Grocery shopped
Filled a prescription
Went to a eye Dr. for Abby's glasses repair
Went to Waterboy to fill water jugs (I usually forget to do this)
In the evening Matt and I got to watch a couple of movies we rented so I had a pretty nice day.

My favorite part was
Went to the Library got a new Library card and checked out
Jane Austin's Pride and Prejudice
I also chatted on the phone with my super awesome sis Luise.
We made plans to watch the 5 hour version of Pride and Prejudice she has, once we both finish the book. She has already read it but is gonna read it again with me fun huh?

Anyone else wanna join us?

My big day

Well I have reached a milestone in mommy years.

My youngest child is in all day Kindergarten.

Holy cow, oh my gosh,

now what?

What I find interesting is all the things I use to day dream about doing as I chased all those babies around the house for the last 15 years (Adam's birthday is next month)
all those big plans I made for the time when my days would be my own...
I really have no desire to do!

I know what I am about to say is shocking and maybe even offensive to some but now that I have some time on my hands
I have NO desire to scrapbook!

I know SHOCKING! I was surpised too! For those of you who don't know, at one point in my life I was a pretty avid scrapper, but as baby #5 came I just could never find the time and always said to myself *someday*. Well now this day is here and I have a Bzillion photos to scrap, and no desire to scrapbook them. I have even considered just slipping them into those page photo holders and being done with it all! (I LOVE taking pictures and if I don't have a camera with me I find myself daydreaming of the photos I would take!) I seriously and still kind surpised at myself.

So here is the freaky thing
I have no plan
and that in itself sounds kind of appealing.

Right now any of you who know me well are saying "who are you and what have you done with the real Leah?!?

What LEAH doesn't have any plans?

I have a bad habit of planning to death my days to ensure that NO fun ever happens and that I run around with my head chopped off never actually accomplish anything!

But not today....

I can do whatever I want.

Which probably will wind up being dishes, laundry, mop kitchen floor,

But also

go to the library and check out
Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austin

and read *guilt free*

because no child is banging on my bathroom door, "starving" because I am trying to get thru a chapter (or in other words -the entire book) in one day.
"Go eat a slice of bread!!!"

because I am home alone!

bathtub here I come!

I will blog again... at some point

just not this morning. But I looked at my own blogs for the first time in like months...what does it say about a person when the never look at there own blogs? (denial...afraid of the reality -that their life is ultra boring!!!) A lot has happened since OCTOBER of 2008! When I have a chance, I will blog... and as you will see in my coming post I am about to get more free time on my hands. (well hopefully!)